THE THREAD KEEPER
i know some people who do it with some kind of higher power and some without. its not about will power because after the first detox you really dont ever want to do it again. getting stoned isnt worth even 5 minutes of the hell from detox but that doesnt matter,i would detox for 4 hellish days then immediately go out and get stoned again and my whole body and mind was screaming to stop but it was like being compelled by an outside force. idk how to describe it except i was doing it against my own will.if you can control it with willpower then you can use once and stop,but thats not how it works,once you take the first fix or drink, you cant stop until you're out of money,passed out or dead.Drunks and addicts using “Higher Power” Slip And backslide with regularity......Too me it’s the desire to break free and better yourself, Using faith as a staff to lean on when you are unsteady.....But you still have to stand on your own two feet to accomplish the task..........No?
i tried everything out there to stop and nothing worked a conselor at the rehab told me to pray to a higher power i said what if i dont believe in anything he said pretend like you do , i was planning to kill myself anyway so i said wtf ill give it a shot. i prayed with all earnestness within my ability but i had 0% belief it would do anything. well the next day the compulsion to use was completely gone, i felt totally fine like i had never used before. now so long as i was going to meetings, helping others, working the steps and doing religion i felt fucking great for a few years. then i got cocky, i started thinking maybe i had just made it up and G-d really had nothing to do with it and i was doing it on my own and if i could do that then i should be able to do one fix and stop, right? well i tried that and ended up full blown back in addiction.
i cant explain it, anyone who can quit on their own good for them,i admire that but for me and most ppl i know it doesnt work that way. all i can say is my own experience and the meticulousness with which the addiction was removed was enough for me to believe there is a force out there more powerful that helped me.